The model, host and author penned an open letter to Glamour Magazine about dealing with postpartum depression.
Last April 31- year old Teigen and her husband, singer John Legend, welcomed a daughter, Luna into the world. She wrote that not speaking about her condition was ‘eating me up inside for months’.
The Sports Illustrated cover star said she “couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy” and initially blamed her mood swings on feeling tired.
She began: “A year ago, in April, John and I started our family together. We had our daughter, Luna, who is perfect. She is somehow exactly me, exactly John, and exactly herself. I adore her.
I had everything I needed to be happy. And yet, for much of the last year, I felt unhappy. What basically everyone around me—but me—knew up until December was this: I have postpartum depression.
“How can I feel this way when everything is so great? I’ve had a hard time coming to terms with that”
She continued to describe the symptoms:
“Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful. My lower back throbbed, my shoulders – even my wrists – hurt.
“One thing that really got me was just how short I was with people. I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired. There was a lot of spontaneous crying.”
“Postpartum does not discriminate,” she concluded. “I couldn’t control it. And that’s part of the reason it took me so long to speak up.
“I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling. Sometimes I still do.
“I’m speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don’t want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone.”
Read the full, inspiring essay here.