One day I will sit by a fire in the desert

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The embers smouldered on the fire, the last dregs of life before disappearing for ever.

I watched with interest as every wisp of breeze set the cinders a glow for a second before fading once more. It was a barren place, dusty and flat. The days so hot and then at night the temperature would drop suddenly.

These are the moments we prepare for in our minds. “One day I will sit by a fire in the desert it will be magical, something I will never forget. I will watch the fire fade into the early hours and all will be well in the world.” But how often do we accomplish these dreams? Or if we do, let them pass almost unnoticed as we seek the next thing to move onto?

But this time I took note of the special moment. I knew times like this were not for the everyday. The embers were dying away, the day was warming up once more. My thoughts turned to why I was there. I had struggled for many years with a couple of particularly difficult relationships. Conflict chased me despite my best efforts to dance around its edges. I wanted to be liked, be accepted, accommodate others, but anger stared me in the face like a raging bull reminding me constantly of my failures and imperfections.

But sitting in the desert, a place of scarcity and deprivation watching the diminshing flames, I wondered if my anger, hate, bitterness and resentment could be something that could surface for a while taken head of before being allowed to die down for ever into a pile of ashes?

And so it was that I started on a process of letting go of all those emotions that I held so close to my heart. Now and again I watch the embers of a fire die away and think of a time in the desert when the spirited flames lasted the night only to fall away into a heap of ashes at daybreak. And I am grateful for unusual experiences that have passed my way.

What is it that bubbles up in you that you want to let go?

Why not join me on the next day retreat in Poole Dorset. A chance to have a moment of reflection, peace and calm in a beautiful setting.

How often do we get the chance to just sit and settle in this world? There is always so much to do! We push through to get more and more done to achieve something, we are often not sure what! Always onwards to the next big goal. But taking a moment now and again to still the body and mind allows us to recuperate, gain a bit of clarity and vision for what is really important for us now.


About the author

Penny Gundry is a coach and facilitator working with professional women to find stillness in everyday life. Penny is the author of the book Glimmers of Light Dancing; A Fable for Our Times. She has a wealth of experience and is asked to speak regularly at events throughout the UK. Visit Penny's website Stillness Practice to find out more.

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